Showing posts with label humanity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label humanity. Show all posts

Wednesday, 18 December 2013

Landmines never leave the battlefield


landmine-step

The history of man is one of aggression. This could have begun after man learned to gather food and became a hunter: you don’t have to kill berries, or the leaves of plants. You do have to kill animals in order to eat them. And eat or die is the law of nature.

Then man discovered that at the end of a day’s work it was somewhat relaxing to work with nature, sowing seeds, setting our plants and seeing things flourish and grow. Using his ingenuity, he erected fences and marked his livestock (for he found he also had to protect what was his). With this husbandry came the growth of civilisation and all the problems and joys associated with it. And in the process the weaponry he used advanced as well, from a single arrow shot from a bow, to the Kalashnikov rapid fire AK47 rifle of today.

I don’t know who it was who thought of packing explosives inside a metal casing and then connecting it to a trigger mechanism to set it off. Now men drop them from the sky, from above and below the surface of the sea, and in many other ways to seed planet earth with their deadly menace.

The most devilish and indiscriminate of these is the landmine. Today, according to the UNICEF pamphlet in our local library in Morrinsville, there is one landmine for every 20 children around the world. They’re produced for as little as $3, and remain active for decades. They’re extremely difficult to detect and cost between $300-$1,000 to remove. Afghanistan is the most heavily mined country, with 10-15 million units covering their land. Angola is next in line, then comes Cambodia, with one in every 230 Cambodian’s an amputee. Landmines continue to claim about 300 victims each month.

No matter where your caravan might rest as you travel this world, somewhere close by there’s some child, teenager, man or woman, crippled, hurt or deformed. False limbs of a sort will enable them to shuffle through each day but it’s not the same as having their own limbs, is it?

A number of years ago a young woman in Canada wrote a song which struck a blow at the heart of all this madness. I forget her name, but not the title of the song, ‘Universal Soldier,’ and I remember one line that went something like:
If every soldier refused to fight, all wars would end.
More people are adding their note of protest now. I’d like to add my protest with this suggestion: each person greedy for wealth who shuts their mind to horror and their heart from mercy, and orders landmines to be laid – along with those who paid for them and those who bury them in the ground – should take their own children to test these landmines. They could then pick up the pieces, take them home and for those still alive, fit them with artificial limbs. Perhaps then they would see the madness of their work…

Dennis Crompton © 1997

“Universal Soldier” is a song written and recorded by Canadian singer-songwriter Buffy Sainte-Marie. The song was originally released on Sainte-Marie’s debut album It’s My Way! in 1964. “Universal Soldier” was not a popular hit at the time of its release, but it did garner attention within the contemporary folk music community. Sainte-Marie said of the song: “I wrote ‘Universal Soldier’ in the basement of The Purple Onion coffee house in Toronto in the early sixties. It’s about individual responsibility for war and how the old feudal thinking kills us all.” (from Wikipedia)

Friday, 29 November 2013

International citizen

hands_world_sm

Ponder, I bid you, on our corporate existence
appearing with time, earth
and humanity's persistence.
A mystery!
along with all the rest
to rouse the mind and set the eternal quest.
*
Homo sapiens, erect, keen brain and senses,
prompted by insight sought
answers to some questions.
A revelation?
Perhaps it could have been,
presenting abstracts as possibilities.
*
Thinking and logic discerned the inbuilt pattern.
Body, soul and spirit we,
foundation of humanity.
A family.
Gregarious with outlook divarious,
nomads and tribal, populating terra firma.
*
Growing, we pledge allegiance to our nation
proud of our flag
we sing its adoration.
A tragedy
eventuates. We volunteer, take up arms
brother fighting against brother, forcing us apart.
*
History, alas, reveals its sad beginning
Cain slew Abel
or is that mere fable?
A discovery
from time to time sees progress intercede
with warfare indiscriminate, and car bombs in our streets.
*
Let's end this utter waste of brain and human flesh.
All of us are human,
kith and kin of all the rest.
Agreement
with each other, whate'er the colour of our skin.
Our own flag underneath the one, international citizen.
*
Dennis Crompton © 1995
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Tuesday, 26 November 2013

Lines connecting


Alone amidst the throng who pass me by
knowing they see only the outward shape of me
and nothing more
familiar copy of their own they see
yet see not me.
*
I share with them a common clay
breathe, eat, sleep, and pass each day as they
this I know, as they know too
still, we have not shared each other yet.
*
Oh there are some glances, nods, a few half smiles
telling me they are partly aware I'm there
some even dare to wave along our common way
superficially each passing ordinary day.
*
So much depends upon the mood, direction, purpose
of the moment when on byways common in our lives
we see, stop, maybe even surface greet a little
then pass on by.
*
If we could see back through the centuries
the flesh, blood and birth of each new human soul
and the distant lines connecting all our lives
perhaps then we'd want and even dare to say...
*
Hello there my friend and how are you today?
come and sit and eat and talk with me awhile.
It's good to share something of ourselves
to enjoy belonging to each other.
*
Dennis Crompton © 1998

Monday, 25 November 2013

Cap and gown

When I reached the magical age of 14, I'd had enough of school, so I left. It was my hope then that Dad would be happy for me to learn a trade, either as a plumber or a brick-layer, but for the three months after I'd left school I stayed at home, did the housework and grew more and more frustrated. I felt I ought to be learning a trade by then, and doing my bit to earn money. AFter a time, I realised that Dad was in no hurry to get me off to work. I'd been expecting him to arrange things and to help get me started, but when I asked him about it he said, "Once tha's started work, tha'll be at it for't rest o' thee life, lad."

He was right, of course, but a few weeks later I seized the opportunity to get things moving. Across the street from where I was going to get our weekend vegetables, I saw a sign in a shop window which said "BOY WANTED". I made up my mind to call in and ask about the job on my way back. Which I did, and I got the job.

The 'cap and gown' bit (my title) came about this way... The green grocer's shop was run by a very large lady. She came with a fierce countenance, and voice to match. Quite a formidable woman, and she'd stand no nonsense from anyone. (Certainly I never offered any.) She had the help of her brother, Tom, who was handicapped (lame in one leg), and who spoke with some difficulty. He always seemed to get the thick edge of the tongue from his big sister who spoke sharply to him as she bustled around the shop serving customers or doing this and that. "Come on our Tom!" she'd say. "Get thisself moving. This lady 'ere 'asn't got all day, you know. And get some more potatoes from't shed. You can see they're getting down!"

But he never seemed to mind or get upset by the way she spoke to him. I saw him once, pushing a barrow of produce around the streets, and I don't know how he managed to get it moving, loaded as it was and with his disability. But move it he did, with the same unruffled look on his face each time I saw him.

The one day, I heard a neighbour speaking in rather hushed tones about this fierce lady. "She's got 'er cap and gown, ya know!" And before my mind had properly begun to ponder on that one, the explanation followed. "For playin't piano, ya know. Oh yes, she plays it beautifully."

You'll understand that I was at the stage of soaking up information and storing it away for regurgitation and discussion with my mates later. The next time I went into the shop I wondered how she could play the piano with hands like hers, and I looked at her with a new respect. Then a few minutes later I heard her talking to her brother, but this time in such a caring and loving way: "Tom, 'ave made a cup of tea for you. Got into t'back and sit down for a while. You look tired out luv."

That was the only time, mind you, but I tucked what I'd learned about her that day in my mind... That the fiercest of persons can have their soft and tender moments. Which is rather nice, don't you think?

Dennis Crompton © 1998

Thursday, 21 November 2013

Images

'Clear Thinking' by Richard Price, www.richardprice.nl
'Clear Thinking' by Richard Price, www.richardprice.nl
In a small back room or cloistered cell
recalling things we know so well
our minds a store of cascading scenes
a glorious kaleidoscope of inner dreams.
*
In country now mid-grove of trees
breathe delicate aroma of scented breeze
beneath my feet the good rich earth
enchanted by choir of wind and birds.
*
Oft' in the darkness of the night
with wonderful eye of inner sight
strolling again remembered places
kiss and caressing familiar faces.
*
Stored personal images we thus renew
uplifting spirit with treasured views
so may people where'er we be,
blessed with our own humanity.
© Dennis Crompton 1996
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Poised in time

dandelion

Now in these golden moments poised in time
despite age and growing quantity of years
my mind an open window on the past
recalls selected scenes banishing errant fears.
*
How far I’ve come, experienced so much
stored deep now in the library of my mind
and just to think presents choices I may make
re-liveable in such depth for me to contemplate.
*
Now it seems I sense a wonder deeper different intent
permitting more enjoyment than at their first event
as if time has added its own surprising invention
bestowing them with distinct extra dimensions.
*
Some recollections sad maybe or too depressing
I filter out keep separate most of the time
knowing they’re there balances my considerations
imparting light and shade to the continuum of my life.
*
An insight now suggests humanity’s real aim
is above and beyond that of daily sustentation
our body a mere container of some unseen chrysalis
transforming more dare I say by inner revelation
of earth’s humanities special chosen destination.
*
Should I be wrong some critics surely will inform me
let them prove it, good on them if they can
I’ve merely used the things as man inherited
bestowed at birth, fulfilling part of the Designer’s plan.
*
So now in golden days still remaining to me
despite age and growing infirmity of years
I view with my enriched mind’s almost completed journey
reliving moments to cherish and to cheer.
*
Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Now I see

eye test

The doctor shone the light into each eye of mine,
seeming to enjoy his searching,
with murmurs of wonder and obvious delight.
Then he sat back and looked at me,
‘There are wonderful things to see there…’
his face and whole demeanour
supplementing what he’d said.
 *
And then he looked again, took his time,
‘Beautiful colours, your eye is a picture
of how things are, inside you…’
*
I sat patiently as he explained this to me, thinking —
All these years I’d seen,
with eyes my window on the world,
two orbs that so much helped to make me…me,
yet I’d been blind to those inner wonders
which only then had been revealed to me.
 *
Of course there was much more;
he had but seen physical,
with his penetrating little light up close,
illuminating my illuminators...
He could not infiltrate the intangible,
see the abstract thought processes of my brain,
make the invisible recognisable…
 *
I know there is much more to me
than daily ordinary visible me,
pleasing or displeasing as the case may be,
to those in charge of supervising,
manipulating, enjoying, or enchanting,
all other forms of observing me.
 *
Now if he’d had a light to penetrate my soul,
to explain my true self to me,
I wonder, what would he have told me then?
*
Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Time to return?

old man thinking


Is it too soon to say that I am ready now,
fold me back into the great mother womb
from which I was expelled,
a human time traveller, not consulted,
on planet earth dwell?
 *
Have I run the gamut,
passed the required tests?
Experienced to the fullest,
all conditions set?
 *
It's true and freely I admit...
I've been so afraid at times
of making just the same mistakes
I've seen on every side.
 *
Some were members of a team,
played each game as it came...
I was drawn to other things,
and so they called me names.
 *
It made me weep each time I saw
my fellow humans suffer...
Others laughed and jeered again,
how could they be so blind?
 *
In many ways I quickly found
I wasn't hard enough...
Men were to be as hard as nails,
and made of better stuff.
 *
Yet I have learned and know it’s true
for each person I have met,
beneath each tough exterior
there's a human heart to touch.
 *
Am I ready now to close the door
on all I think I've been through...?
For now I ask, 'If it's the end,
where will I return to?’
 *
Dennis Crompton © 2013
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Our daily round

old lady


The door opened and she stepped out
her walk a half shuffling, stumbling trot …
skin tight around the structure
of her tired homely face
framed in hair a wispy white …
*
Each time I see her we smile and greet
we do not stop but walk on down the street,
her mission serving someone else’s needs,
and so our lives we live …
 *
We are neighbours ... what does that mean?
I don’t know her, she doesn’t know me
and soon we’ll both be history,
dead to life and to each other …
 *
We could so easily stop and change
the pattern set on both our courses;
what is her life and what is mine
but time to share before we fly?
 *
Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Andorf's journey

I once went to a writer’s workshop with a woman called Rene, in Cambridge, a small town an hour’s drive from where I live, attended by eight or so writers from the district. Rene opened her session by asking us to jot down anything that we hadn’t thought of writing about before, just short headings to get our imaginations going. Fifteen minutes later, several of us were asked to speak briefly about our topic, I was one who volunteered among two others.

Andorf’s journey is the finished item, started at that workshop:

brother and sister

Andorf’s heart was lighter now that the village was behind them, hoping he’d done the right thing. So many people were dying because of the plague and although it had not yet reached his village, it soon would. His sister, Claire, was not strong but she seemed to be managing all right as they made their journey to another village, considered safer, as it was less frequented by travellers likely to bring the disease from other parts. He looked at Claire again and told her they’d have another rest when they reached the next mile stone.
As they walked his mind thought about the healer, and he seized on that positive thought, held it, wanting to explore and maybe even experience some of the things he’d heard about him. He’d guessed that much was exaggerated, but found it absorbing.

‘Oh … the healer’, a pedlar had replied to his question, ‘Oh yes, he’s a wonder is that man. You know he washes himself … every day!’

Strange, doing that, Andorf thought; still there must be something to it. Then he smiled as he recalled somebody adding, ‘Then there’s the kind of stuff he eats. I don’t know that I could eat nettles. Fancy that. Just the tops mind you.’ And then just a few days ago, he heard an old woman explaining the things she’d seen the healer collect from the woods one day.

Andorf paused to remove a piece of gravel from his sandal and noticed with some concern that Claire had dropped behind as they’d been walking. ‘It’s all right … just a bit out of breath. Give me a few minutes …’ she murmured softly, trying to smile as she looked at him. She was looking quite tired thought Andorf, and he felt a tugging at his throat as a sudden fear came upon him. We still have another seven and a half miles to go and it’s well past noon day, he thought. Perhaps we should have waited a few more days for her to gain more strength. But he knew as he thought that, that it wasn’t true. She came only because I insisted, he chastised himself. If she dies on the way … and he couldn’t prevent a slight sob escaping from his tight lips. As their eyes met, he coughed to hide his embarrassment and gently helped her to her feet.

They walked the rest of the way together, his arm around his sister’s waist and as they reached the next mile stone, they left the road and found a place for her to sit and rest again. Now it was only seven miles but as he looked at his sister again a sudden rush of deep concern quickened his pulse, her face was quite pale and there was a touch of beauty there now that he had not seen before, of such depth and quality, surpassing even those in the pictures on the stained-glass windows in the abbey. Then he was suddenly afraid for her and turned away lest she should see the sadness on his face.

After a while they continued slowly on past two, and then three, more mile stones, joined by others heading in the same direction. Claire was heavier on his arm now, her strength slipping away with each step. The state of the road was no help, with deep ruts filled with filthy water which they had to wade through as there was no way round them. Occasionally they’d come to a grove of trees where it was cool and refreshing and the desire to linger and rest was so inviting. But Andorf was afraid to stop, even when they came to a number of hamlets, wretched dilapidated places where people were so poor it made his heart heavy just to look at them. He blinked away the tears that seeped down into his eyes, increasing the anguish he felt for Claire, so frail and still so beautiful. Her quiet spirit and light infectious laughter had often been the cause of lifting him from some wearisome task, it would break his heart if … and he would not let himself think on but knelt down pretending to retie the thong on his left sandal to give him a moment to recover his composure. How dirty his feet were now and the nail on his big toe …then with a sudden panic he heard a low moan from Claire and turning saw her slump to her knees, her eyes staring and wide open before he could reach her, frightened him.

From one of the doors to his right the figure of a middle-aged woman came running to kneel beside Claire before he could get to his feet, she was talking quietly to her. Then even as he reached her side Claire looked at him, smiled, then closed her eyes as her head fell back onto the woman’s arms. For a moment Andorf couldn’t move, his feet and legs did not respond to his purpose to move, his voice locked within his tightening chest and he felt as if his heart would burst … and that moment seemed so very long. It ended with him feeling weak and empty as if his knees would suddenly give way beneath him as slowly but clearly Andorf knew. Something had gone from his sister, Claire. She was now an empty shell and void of life and in that dread moment, he changed from youth to man.

Somehow it passed and he left the darkness of that scene behind him, the road to the monastery seemed to lift his spirit with each step, as if some purpose for which he had been born was about to be fulfilled. He wondered how things would be for him in such a place and felt again the note inside his doublet, written by the priest who had told him of the healer and his work. Reassured, he continued on his way even though he knew only a handful of novices were taken in each year, now looking cold and forbidding in the distance.
The rising sun soon warmed him as he climbed the hill and knocked at last upon the heavy oaken door. Later that afternoon he was taken in to see the healer, who looked at him for some time before he spoke: ‘Well Andorf, you would like to join our Brotherhood then? Sit down now and tell me something about yourself.’ The voice was quiet and soothing, filled with warmth and encouragement; then the healer listened as Andorf told him of his journey.

Dennis Crompton © 1999
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

My father's fare-welling eyes

father and son

When last I looked
on all that was precious to me then,
life before me ever widening, so exciting,
fighting so strongly those inner young man urges …
stay… or… go!
and thus my mind in quite a turmoil reasoned.
 *
‘I’ll go,’ I’d say,
‘No opportunities available here;
nothing really to make me stay.’
Then this thought, conqueror for a while,
eased the struggle, made me smile.
New country, opportunities to make new friends
‘Yes, it’s time to get away,’ I’d say.
 *
Wait a minute now, are you sure?
What of your family?
Winter’s coming and Dad’s not well …
This inner battle surged to and fro,
but I accepted at last the challenge to go.
 *
In some ways that part was easy
with me still wet behind the ears.
So with brother, two elder sisters
and father beside me, I took me leave,
whispering tearfully my choked goodbyes.
 *
The years have passed quickly as they do,
my last goodbye often accusing -
somewhere deep inside my head -
wishing I could relive again
the words I spoke back then:
 *
‘Only five years, Dad.
Just a few years, Dad, I’ll be away.
You know I must go, Dad?’
And his eyes taking their last look of me
so nearly persuaded me to stay.
 *
He knew, of course
our hold on life is so very tenuous,
no guarantees that our mortal plans
will necessarily reach their end …
and so it’s often been since last I looked
into my father’s fare-welling eyes.
 *
Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Maritime hero: my half-brother, Harold Crompton

Empire_Javelin_1-290x181

My half-brother, Harold Crompton, was an engineering officer on board the Empire Javelin in 1944, and has given me his account of the moment the torpedoes struck to him regaining consciousness; then his helping in the rescue of U.S. men trapped below after the explosion. His informing the crew of the Free French L'Escarmouche and the men's rescue by the French sailors who using acetylene torches, cut through deck plating to free the men below. 

I have his voice tape of this event, though not of good quality due to his being partly gassed while anchored in Bari harbour, Italy when German planes bombed and destroyed many ships, with 'General Harvey' I think carrying mustard gas exploded resulting in much loss of life. 
Here is my written version of his recording, after removing coughing, a mixed version of popular songs Harold plays in the background, and repetitions where he forgets what he's already explained. 

December 28, 1944, Harold Crompton, Maintenance engineer (Plumber) had just washed two collars from his shirts (they were detachable in those days for easy washing) and had pressed them onto the mirror above the hand basin in his cabin to dry when there was a terrific explosion and he was knocked unconscious for a short time. He came to to find himself on his knees with his chin resting on the basin in complete darkness, with a heavy weight on his back holding him down and realized his cupboard was the cause. He was able to push it away and by opening his porthole cleared the smoke in his cabin and made his way up on deck and whilst talking to a couple of officers standing looking out into distance saw a corvette heading towards them. He also heard voices from one of the large horns which directed fresh air into the lower parts of the ship; some American servicemen were trapped in the propeller shaft housing and needed rescuing.

Harold made his way down to an inspection plate over the shaft which was only large enough for a man's head. Harold shone his torch into the shaft and saw three or four soldiers there. He told them he'd do his best to get them out and made his way back on deck by which time the Free French L'Escarmouche was alongside and he called out to some Americans on board that some of their guys were trapped below and needed cutting gear to get free them. Some French sailors went below and came back with huge coils of piping and metal cutting gear which they took below, and after explaining to the trapped soldiers that they needed to keep back a little, commenced cutting the deck plating to enlarge the hole.

L'Escarmouche_1944_IWM_FL_4094
L'Escarmouche 1944
Harold by this time had a splitting headache and was given some medication which made him drowsy and was taken to the sick bay by the sailors where he fell asleep for some hours. He learned later that all the soldiers were rescued a little time before the Empire Javelin was again torpedoed and sank below the waves.
Harold's memory had been affected by the explosion and couldn't remember what details about himself he gave when he joined the Merchant Navy in Liverpool; consequently I have not been able to verify officially his status on board Empire Javelin. A pity, as his health had already been affected during a German bombing raid at Bari Harbour in Italy in 1942, when an American ship carrying mustard gas blew up causing many deaths and injuring others severely for the rest of their lives.

Harold also told me a little about the Bedford Boys who were ferried by landing craft to the beaches at Omaha from the Empire Javelin.


Dennis Crompton © 2013

Initially published at: www.maritimequest.com on this page :  www.maritimequest.com/warship_directory/great_britain/pages/amphibious/pages/empire_javelin_1944_harold_cromptons_story.htm
Read also: www.mybestyears.com/ARCHIVES/WWR/2-021507SelmanEvans.html, the story of Mr J V Selman who was a US sailor also onboard the Empire Javelin when it was torpeoded. Also published at www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Will the way ahead be clear?

the book of life


When the tombstones of the warlords
have crumbled into dust;
when the armouries and assembly lines
cease manufacturing the guns;
when servicemen and women
refuse to hear the call;
and the ordinary citizen
universally says, No!
Then, when the dogs of war are leashed
will the way ahead be clear?
 *
When the common and the everyday
are seen as part of our creation;
when the eye of every human
looks on his neighbour as companion;
when all the hurt that ever was
has lost its bitterness;
when, I’m sorry, and, I love you,
contain no other meaning.
Then, when we’ve learned to think of others 
will the way ahead be clear?
 *
When shouting for our rights
balances with our responsibilities;
when those who do the manual work
are recognised for what they’re worth;
when elected representatives
seek honestly to govern;
when mankind learns to live with nature
and stops poisoning the planet.
Then, with standards all acknowledge
will the way ahead be clear?
 *
When we join the great departed
and time for us has ceased;
will we leave some good behind us,
folks be grateful that we’d lived;
how will the personal record look
as the score is totalled up;
will the watchers hide their faces
as our book of life is shut?
Will everything be clear at last
as to the reason we have lived?
 *
Dennis Crompton © 1994
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

An ordinary bloke

man

I remember him fairly well,
an ordinary bloke
lived alone down our street,
one of the lads.
So ordinary, we hardly knew he was there,
never said much, a quiet one,
never did much …
he was just there …
one of the lads.
 *
Ambition? Some said he had none,
never showed much if he had;
sarcasm hit him when he tried,
crushed him when he succeeded …
saw the end of him did that …
stayed an ordinary bloke,
yes … one of the lads.
 *
He did have feelings … ordinaries do ...
let his emotions show,
laughed at permitting tears to fall
when some friend or animal died,
a quiet, ordinary, feeling bloke,
yes … one of the lads.
*
Not so ordinary when his country went to war,
ordinary blokes volunteered or were conscripted,
trained and sent to distant shore …
he’s there today … somewhere out there,
numbered under a military stone …
yes … a quiet, feeling, dead ordinary bloke,
one of the lads … ordinary no more.
 *
Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Contemplations

hand

I wonder by what decree this life of mine began
apart from loving parents and procreation’s plan;
each gave to the foundation of the place wherein I dwell
but, from whence came, I, occupant spirit that abides?
 *
One main question ever smoulders in my mind:
is there a point perchance to our sublime design?
A little lower than the angels mankind is said to be
I ask the question of such a mystery.
 *
Humanity can rise to such lofty heights,
compose great music, create splendorous works of art;
yet inbuilt flaws will plunge mankind at times
to iniquitous depths, even to annihilating our own kind.
*
Since grains of sand turn back the ocean’s might,
and oil and water naturally do not mix;
could not some slight correction of design
endow us humans with some similar balancing line?
 *
Even as I pose such controversial thoughts,
insight informs me that just cannot be…
to rob us humans of free will’s choice
would make us puppet-like, manipulated things.
 *
There has to be a loftier plane, I muse,
a quest worldwide that all humanity can pursue;
some inner message confirms this could be true
as each day passes and I reach out to you.
*
Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Thoughts from dust

soul

My first public performance of this poem was at an Auckland University writer's meeting as a member of PEN. My heart at that time had begun to give me trouble and I was nervous wondering what kind of reception my poetry item might receive. I should have given myself a moment or two to explain that I was new to writing, but I didn't; so in that atmosphere, appearing before 'recognised New Zealand writers' I read my poem. Needless to say I was grateful and a little surprised that the response was warm and with applause and smiles all round.
I dare to stand and speak forth what I have written here,
that which from my innermost being I have felt,
which like a spring from deepest earth has risen,
things which are dear to me or move me much, my friend.
 *
Watching, you see only the outwardness of this, my being;
enquire, and you’ll learn the facts describing me;
listen, and you will find I have similar aspirations,
the secret inner things you deeply feel, I feel them too.
*
Just as within your breast your heartbeat tells you,
you are a living, breathing and thinking thing;
just as your mind confirms that you are existing,
with feelings human and warmly intimate, my friend.
 *
Just as you see the beauty in a rose bud,
admire the soaring flight of bird on wing;
just as you love or hate some things around you,
so do I too, sharing humanity with you, my friend.
 *
Why then, whatever sign I’m born with,
whether I be Christian, Jew, Buddhist or what else,
why think that I must be shunned because I’m different,
why does so much of what I am offend you, friend?
 *
My life, like yours, was given with no explanation;
I come with no agenda to kill, maim or destroy.
Like you, I was not consulted as to my colour, creed or nation,
only when born, like you, do I discover who and what I am.
 *
Since then so much from us is hidden,
through a glass darkly as the way we see;
let’s journey through this life together,
learn to enjoy the richness each one brings.
 *


Dennis Crompton © 1996
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Inclinations

gay


My time in the British army and RNZAF (Royal New Zealand Air Force) meant that I mixed with all sorts and conditions of men, and as they are part of our common humanity I've written this item in an attempt to record some of these gay and joyful observations.

The residence at Hursley on the road heading north to Winchester, was just what I'd wanted. Nice location. Excellent condition and the accommodation flat on the end meant I could have someone there for company. My lawyer friend would help me organise all that. I gave a twirl round the rooms I was so pleased with myself. At last I could settle down and follow my own inclinations. (What a gorgeous word that is!)

That night I retired with a feeling of satisfaction and excitement. After I'd unpacked my wardrobe, I planned to explore my new surroundings with a trip along the motorway to my old stamping ground at Winchester. So, with a word of thanks on my lips to my dear non-judgemental, understanding, Aunt Phoebe, I nestled down to sleep in my luxurious new bed.

About mid-morning the following day, I surveyed the badly rumpled state of my wardrobe and could have cried. Well, I did cry. After all the care I'd taken packing. Those brutes of carriers must have thrown my three portmanteaus into their van with as much thought as they took to dress themselves. Really. It made me so cross. I'd tipped them well enough too. There was nothing for it, I took time off for a gin and tonic and rang my friend Hugh. He's a real pet. Just hearing his voice did wonders in calming my nerves.

I followed his advice, pressed and hung everything and by the time that was done, it was too late to think of Winchester. Instead, I took a stroll and ended up sipping a crème de menthe in Tony's, a boutique in the centre of Hursley. The place was crowded with old ecclesiasticals. There was no getting away from my immediate past it seemed. To be honest, I didn't want to. It had been a mistake in a way. Seven cloistered years is quite a slice out of anyone's life. And at thirty-five I was not that old. But I was wiser and had learned a great deal about fabrics and design.

I thought another blessing on dear Aunt Phoebe and decided to splash out on the latest in Swedish sewing machines. The lounge needed new curtains but I'd start with the crushed silk I'd just purchased. I couldn't resist the feel of it nor the assistant with the softest blue eyes as he murmured: 'Do you have the inclination to try this, sir?'

I'll be popping ‘round again of course; they do carry the most delightful range of materials.

Two days later, as I sat wondering what I might do by way of design, a line from Shakespeare's Hamlet came to mind:
Costly thy habit as thy purse can buy but not expressed in fancy; rich, not gaudy, for the apparel oft proclaims the man.
Willy was so right. It gave me an idea and an hour or so later, I'd completed the first evening garment that made me famous in the rag trade. It really was stunning.

A vote of thanks to Aunt Phoebe's generosity remembering me in her will. My shop opened in Hurley's main street in time for the influx of summer visitors to several abbeys in the vicinity. Private sales surprised us all. The first, held at the Royal Hussars Museum proved profitable. I could hardly drag myself away, all those lovely men in their splendid uniforms. Orders followed from the Hampshire Regiment Barracks. There was nothing ordinary about the soldiers I helped into and out of the range of materials I offered there.

I had to return several days later to take orders from staff and seniors at several colleges in the vicinity as well. There was no stopping things from then on. My label: 'Abbot's Fancy' took off like you wouldn't believe. I mean, drag queens and famous people I can't possibly name, adore the idea of wearing my design based on a monk's habit. My old abbot at Winchester and other abbots throughout Hampshire and further afield complaining as they did on TV and in the press, increased my turnover 200%. Though most of them popped in at the back door later, as it were.

The young assistant with those soft blue eyes who'd helped me select the mauve crushed silk, has come in with me. He's a classy dresser and looks so sweet in mauve. I have a reminder of his first words to me inscribed inside the ring he gave me: ‘Inclination’. It's such a nice word.

Oh, by the way, should you wish to follow your own inclination, you'll find me on the internet and in the yellow pages. My new shops go under the name: ‘Habits: nice but nocturnal’.

'Bye for now.

Dennis Crompton © 1999
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

A time of remembrance


war

He’d been married three years, was enjoying life with his wife and daughter, everything was going well for them…and then the war broke out. He tried to ignore the inevitable and get on with life, together with his family but knew he’d have to leave them in the end. He was just a country lad who loved the land and animals, not up with politics and such; he just wanted - well - to be left alone and to be with his family.

Of course that couldn’t be, not with his country at war; he was a man and was expected to fight. It didn’t matter where he went, there was always something to remind him; flags flying, patriotic posters in prominent places, men and women in uniform; that and the questions folk asked, without even speaking when they saw him.

His heart was heavy; something seemed to warn him not to go; on his own sometimes he’d get a kind of a premonition, though he wasn’t superstitious. A voice, warm and proud whispering, ‘You’re going to be a hero. You’ll get a medal!’ Then a different voice, cold and matter of fact, taunted, ‘Because you’re one of those warm and sensitive types, you have to realise some things; those you leave behind; those who order you to go and those who train you, won’t have to see you shoot your rifle, use your bayonet as you advance, screaming your insane head off; and in the state you’ll be in after that, well, it’s best you don’t come back. You can see that, can’t you? But then, your country will be proud of you; you’ll be a hero!’

Of course he slept badly, waking often, imagining himself staring at his own gravestone; his name standing out amongst row upon regimental row of others, neat and trim and: ‘Ready for inspection! Sir!’
...
Whether they accomplished anything by their visits to the cemetery at Cape Helles, would be hard to say; but his beloved and his daughter placed fresh flowers on the small white slab beneath his name plate each time they went. Like all wives and family members after such visits, they both left feeling drained and unutterably sad, hating the stupid waste of it all. They left heartaches and tears as well, but you can’t record those, can you?
*
A fellow member of the Returned Services Association told me this story after he’d been to take a photograph of the battlefield where the Turkish soldier and the R.S.A. chap’s friend, a Kiwi solider, fell and died. It was through one of those strange coincidences life throws up at you sometimes, that he came to know this chap’s wife and daughter and they established a firm friendship. They met in that Turkish cemetery that day and took a photograph of his grave. The inscription read simply: ‘Private Talat Demisar, aged 22 years. He did his duty’.

And from a short distance away, the haunting strains of the Last Post hung in the quiet air as the three of them remembered, together.

Dennis Crompton © 1997
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

A peculiar swing of the pendulum

Pendulum clock conceived by Galileo Galilei around 1637. The earliest known pendulum clock design, it was never completed. (Wikipedia)
Pendulum clock conceived by Galileo Galilei around 1637, but never completed. (Wikipedia)
Quite a number of city folk look on me with something akin to pity when I tell them that I live in the country, especially when I mention the name of the town. Odd really as many came from similar situations themselves. Some faces soften: those who've made it financially; or those in the process and who plan to return; those who get out of the rat race and come back into the peace and calm of the rural scene…which is a fiction really. The pendulum can swing from tranquillity to disaster just as easily in country districts as in the cities. It did in my town.

The bank's still there but not the blood stains. They went with the blue carpet and some of the fittings ripped out during the alterations afterwards. Working in the district forensic laboratory for some years I'd processed photographs and items of many crimes. I've seen what bullets can do to a human body when delivered at very close quarters. It was horrific what one bullet did to the victim who survived.

Understandable, then, that customers and bank staff required counsellors to assist them and members of the police and St John's Ambulance to cope with it all. They did their best but some things can't be altered. Not with counselling. Not with the passing of time, not even when the sun shines, when the streets are peaceful or when people pass their daily lives with the appearance of quiet assurance. Ask those affected on that day and they'll tell you that a recurring nudge from their subconscious reminds them of the peculiar swing of the pendulum.

Before 'that day' everything about the bank had suggested permanence: the quietness within its solid structure; the carpet soft underfoot; the neat uniforms of the staff; and the calm appearance of the manager. It was the same each day of the week. You could bank on it, as the saying goes. This section of the counter was for the ordinary public, that section for business people with their canvas bags of cheques and cash, and over there was for other business and where you made enquires. Folk who'd ‘made it’ ordered their travellers cheques and foreign currency there, all smiles and quietly confident in possession of their wealth. A great time for them to be alive and with further excitements just around the corner. (Further excitement. Yes indeed.)

Each locality has its quota of odd people of varying ages, backgrounds and persuasion adding their distinctive flavour, even a richness of one kind or another. In our town there was a woman, some called a medium, who could be counted on to say or do something beyond the norm during the different phases of the moon. On this day, when no one could have guessed how she knew, her voice urgent and insistent said there was a foulness and smell of death in the air. Then, in the same breath, likened it to the horde of pests awaiting release from Pandora's box. She was going on about innocent people being shot when the young receptionist put the phone down. ‘I thought it was a hoax,’ she sobbed later, when the editor heard about it.

But by then it was too late.

An unusual kind of excitement was brooding in the kitchen of the home of the Bowden family, not far out of town that day. It coincided exactly with the phone call from the medium to the local press. At the Bowden house, Scott's mother was sick to her stomach. Her son's normally warm personality had changed, with an abruptness that sent her reeling. Breakfast had been bad enough, she just couldn't do anything right for him. It was more than just a bad temper, it was the mood changes that began to cause her serious concern.
Then, about mid-morning she'd said something that tipped the scales the wrong way and the air became heated with tension. It was a great pity, but understandable when the facts became known. At a friend's place the night before his drinks had been spiked, for laughs apparently. Whatever the substance was, it set in motion an outrage that filled many people with horror and despair, especially the parents of teenagers. The fools who'd wanted a few laughs, if they got them, was actually the one responsible for the deaths and heartbreaks that followed.

The change began in the early hours of the following morning, Scott struggling with his fuddled mind trying to make sense of what was happening to him. Waves of panic and alarm sent him rushing into bursts of wild activity, little of it balanced or coherent before gradually becoming quiet again. A quietness which progressed to an unnatural icy coolness suggestive of a mind teetering on the brink of insanity. He'd left the house by the time his mother had called him for lunch, and she hesitated a while before phoning the police to tell them of her concerns. Her recorded message was played back two hours later.

Junior bank teller, Grant Haskell, was a spirited young man, who possessed along with his good looks a bubbling kind of personality which most people, especially other teens, found attractive. He also had considerable potential which the bank was keen to nurture. Scott Bowden knew Grant. They'd played basket-ball and been on the same school camps together. They were friends but not close friends. Yet two witnesses were convinced he'd shown no recognition of Grant as Scott had rested the barrel of the rifle on the counter. They saw him survey the bank staff, their eyes mesmerised by the rifle moving backwards and forwards in an arc in front of them. They'd watched as Grant moved slowly from behind the counter, attempting a smile in the hope Scott would recognise him and stop the madness.

As Grant opened his mouth to speak to Scott, the barrel of the rifle wavered slightly up and to the left. The crack of the shot stunned everyone and they all said how, in a kind of slow motion, they watched in disbelief as the bullet entered just below Grant’s jaw to come out a fraction of second later by the side of his left eye. Just before Grant crumpled to the ground, there was a moment when the skin and bone in between burst open and a gaping hole pumping with blood appeared in the side of his face. Moments after the blast, Scott appeared to regain a brief semblance of normality but still he gunned down a customer and a bystander outside who'd tried to prevent him leaving. He was caught, tried and sentenced.

Our laboratory supplied the evidence at the trial, establishing that a drug found on the premises of one of the party-goers was the same as that found in Scott's brain at the post mortem. The two deaths in our small town and one bank teller dreadfully disfigured was news-worthy for a while. You're probably thinking, 'I've heard it all before', except it didn't end there; there was another peculiar swing to this particular pendulum.

At a manager’s meeting, the local bank manager, Mr Reginald Naylor, felt that reconstructive plastic surgery to Grant Haskell's face would be a constant reminder of the murder and therefore offensive to some people who relied on the bank. The general feeling was it would be better for Grant to be away from it all, and they left Mr Naylor to sort it out from there. It might have helped if he'd talked to Grant, however, as Grant had the potential to rise well above his own position. Mr Naylor felt that just wouldn’t be right. To give himself time to sort things out, he gave Grant a month's paid leave, after his long spell in hospital and reconstructive surgery, and he made his plans.

The letter was on his desk when Grant, almost restored to his former identity but with horrific signs on the suffering he had endured still evident, returned from the hospital and his extended leave. He was warmly welcomed back by his colleagues who had been regular visitors to him throughout his rehabilitation. Grant had been and integral part of the bank team, even as a junior teller, and the bank had always stressed the importance of that. They'd had regular get-togethers, week-end seminars, a mixture of intensive lectures and fun-times to achieve that end, and they'd succeeded. Loyalty to each other went hand in hand with loyalty to the bank. So you can understand what Grant thought of loyalty when he opened the letter terminating his employment.

Some weeks later, Gwyneth White's dog attracted her attention to a patch of bush on her family farm. It was the body of Grant; it was presumed he'd gone missing in the bush not long after receiving his termination letter. Searchers had given up after several extended sweeps of the area failed to find evidence of him being there, and yet there he was, not far from his home town.

Now what will happen at the next swing of the pendulum do you think?

Dennis Crompton © 1997
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Final confirmation

whereamigoing

It was the absence of familiar sounds that pushed the first alert button in my mind, as Sugar, our cat, hadn’t purred her gentle, ‘Get up and feed me now!’ call in my ear. The second alert registered when I realised my eyes were open but there was nothing to see; just a soft, creamy light. My body felt different too; I wasn’t hungry and I didn’t need the loo; my eyes weren’t bunged up and itchy from hay-fever. Strange. A moment of panic. It was Red Alert now. I knew I wasn’t dreaming … but … was I awake?

My hypochondriac mind kicked in; imagined my heart thumping loudly and checked. Nothing. I felt for my pulse … foolish me, no heartbeat … no pulse! Wow, so this was it! My time had arrived. The Big End … I took it calmly enough after that dramatic insight which surprised me really. Not much I could do, now … and gradually the soft light grew stronger and I saw I was in a room; a waiting room with chairs and a small table. Then from somewhere in the light, a voice said, ‘Do take a seat. This won’t take long, then you can be on your way’.

‘On my way?’ I asked, my voice sounding faint and distant; but the voice didn’t seem to hear.

‘First, a few questions. We must be sure we have the correct body-data match. Name?’

I went through the formula, slipping in a few humorous asides; they could have been out of place but I was trying to appear normal. Normal? What was I thinking? Normal had gone; this was beyond the normal; beyond what I’d expected, but then my previous thinking had never graduated to this stage of what I’d expected.

The voice again: ‘Any questions?’

‘Well … yes … where am I?’

‘You don’t know?’ I was encouraged by a tinge of amusement in the voice. ‘Have a guess then’.
‘Heaven?’ I suggested hopefully.

The voice laughed: ‘Oh no, more a blend of your local earth time travel agency terminus, combined with our post-earth-graduate control; still, it’s good to see you have a sense of humour; rather novel in candidates here and it will come in handy for you. Now, just a quick check on your last pre-conception posting request … let’s see … Yes, here it is … an assignment in the North Island of New Zealand … now where is that? … Oh, way down here, only just made it on the map … and you chose ... Mohaka on the east coast. A lovely Maori word meaning, ‘a place of dancing’ as I understand. But, oh dear…’. The voice trailed off.
‘What?’ … I asked nervously.

‘Your occupation was accountant? Not good in that locality; well in any locality really. Just quietly, they haven't much of reputation here. Sorry about that. I’m not being judgemental you understand; candidates are to some extent their own judge here … I can tell you these things as they’ll be erased from your temporary memory before you depart. Now if you’ll excuse me for a moment, I’ll feed your personal information into the post-earth-time-cosmos-referral index and get back to you directly.’

It was then I caught a faint recollection of myself as a boy playing on a farm at one time. Yes, there was a beach close by. It was great there … a pity we had to leave …

The voice interrupted my thoughts: ‘I shouldn’t need to point out that anything regarding your past, will be the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth; taken by a brain-scan of your earth-time memory and registered on our records from the moment of your conception. You don’t even have to take an oath; we know everything about you; our data files are more with-it than anything held on the New Zealand Police computer’.

No attempt was made to hide the laugh that bubbled to the surface at this point. ‘I could space-transmit them a copy if you like? Sorry, just kidding … and I see you made it to Wellington as a Member of Parliament. What happened? No! don’t tell me. Not many get through the system there without falling by the wayside. A pity in your case. You were very convincing. Lots of ordinary people genuinely believed you. Depended on you. Trusted you to do as you promised. Yes I know, people living longer meant everything was more tightly stretched … and you had a real struggle with the term: ‘Greedy Oldies’. Easier to overcome using labels that degrade. You knew that. Understandable that you felt uncomfortable with your salary, pension and perks … but your vote did help your party win the day!’

The voice paused; I needed it. My equilibrium had been knocked for six.

It continued: 'The interviewer put it to you that it would be difficult for a person with two children, paying market rental to live on $40 a week. You thought not. Your party was proud of you for that but it crushed the people who’d voted for you. Still, those experiences can allow a more enlightened choice in your future decisions. More heart and less conformity to the party line perhaps? It might be a good idea to forget the standard way of doing things and give ordinary people a chance; in any case you’ll be able to think well outside the square here.’

I was feeling a bit narked now and the voice must have sensed it.

‘Feel free to comment,’ it said tolerantly.

‘You do have me at a disadvantage here … I mean, I haven’t come prepared'.

The voice chuckled: ‘Of course. We do bear in mind the original cards you were dealt; it’s the way you played them that matters and you have only passed through the elementary stages so far. Your past experiences together with whatever way you’re thinking takes here, will have a bearing on your decisions in the next round. Take heart, your final assessment is light-years away yet.’

At that point another voice, coldly metallic I thought, broke in: 'Ten cosmos shifts to dematerialisation stage. All post-earth candidates proceed to the lounge for memory recall and earth-time replay.’

It was comforting when the original voice came back with: ‘Sorry about the interruption but I think I’ve covered everything. During your next session you’ll be able to change decisions made during your earth-time. You’ll automatically receive instructions how to do this as the viewing proceeds. Now in earth terms I’d wish you luck, except there’s no such thing. We do believe in team work, you’ll know something about that coming from New Zealand.

The voice faded with the words … ‘Think outside the square …’ then silence.

I felt exposed in that silence but the chair was comfortable as the light slowly dimmed and the screen came on. A young woman was powdering her nose as she listened to someone talking to her from another room: ‘Who’s taking you to the college dance, Audrey?. Not Ted Forbes, I hope. I don’t trust him, you can dance as much as you like when your fiancé comes home next month.’ The camera zoomed in closer. She looked familiar, so did the photograph stuck on the side of the mirror. My stars! The caption at the bottom of the screen said it all. Three hours to the conception of … and there was my name … it was true then after all.
I was a bastard from the start.

Dennis Crompton © 1999

(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)