Showing posts with label Winston Churchill. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Winston Churchill. Show all posts

Thursday, 21 November 2013

Becoming a father changed all that...



Unidentified girls, Spanish Civil War
Unidentified girls, Spanish Civil War
My friend, Robert asked me one day,
What did Hiroshima mean to you as a young man?’
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Well … nothing really, I’d never thought much about it, I said,
back then in 1945, I was only fifteen and patriotic,
I mean, I saw around me bomb damaged houses,
streets of them and lots of temporarily bomb-shocked humans, vacant-eyed …
scrambled-minded wrecks shuffling along the streets of my home town.
I heard the pilot-less flying bomb one night, its engine suddenly quiet overhead,
felt my heart thumping loudly in that sudden … very frightening silence
I hear it yet at times and if I should perchance forget,
I can Google it onto my computer screen - if I wish…
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Ground Zero for Hiroshima, August of that same year …
Oh yes! They reaped Churchill’s promised whirlwind
and that was fine by me.
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Becoming a father changed all that, it sure changed me…
it gave Hiroshima a meaning, a meaning that was thrust upon me one day
when I imagined my daughters there, back then, and thankfully
I’d lost my soul-destroying callowness…
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Now I’m part of that history, have changed, am changing now
with still more to come …
so in a way, Hiroshima had a point,
for all of us, I’d say.
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Dennis Crompton © 1997
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Our mental fight: primary school and thoughts of war

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It was a long time ago when folk, for the most part, lived their lives in the district where they were born, shackled by a lack of money or opportunity to venture far. A few did raise their heads above it all, saw a future in the distance and with heart rending courage, wept their farewells and left. I saw and learned these things as a young boy, long ago now, attending Stoneygate Primary School in England in the 1930s.

Our school was built of stone from a local quarry, with a sombre aspect from the outside, and with little variation inside. It had high ceilings with large windows, and in the winter the rooms were nose-bitingly cold to such a degree that the cold made my eyes ache. The threadbare hand-me-down clothes most of us wore did little to keep us warm, but as many of us were in the same state, together we stamped our feet and blew on our cold hands, and managed as best we could.

The furniture was sparse and the floor of bare boards was hard underfoot and reverberated when we moved over it, or when our wooden clogs struck the legs of the chairs or desks. The largest feature in the room was a map of the world suspended above a blackboard at the front. Areas coloured in pink indicated they were part of the British Commonwealth which we were taught that, ‘Hitler despised.’ We learnt that he told the German people that they were the ‘master race’ and were destined to rule the world. The country of Poland was invaded by German jack-booted storm troopers, strutting their way through the shattered country leaving behind them misery, death and devastation.

At school and at home we had heard about the invasion of Poland and it seemed that nothing could stop the Germans taking over the world. We heard about the defeat of our armies; and the escape and rescue of many soldiers from Dunkirk.

Eventually, Hitler stood on the shores of France and looked across at Britain, and from there, echoing Napoleon just over one hundred years ago, boasted:
‘We shall soon conquer them; they’re just a nation of shop-keepers’.
One of his generals agreed:
‘In three weeks England will have her neck wrung like a chicken’.
Winston Churchill’s reply still stirs me deep inside:
‘Some chicken! Some neck!’
I wasn’t fully aware of what it all meant as Longridge, Lancashire, was still a long way from Germany; but we did prepare for it in our way. By our feet sat a small cardboard box containing a gas-mask, which we practised putting on under our desks during air-raid warnings. All the glass in the windows were criss-crossed with gummed masking tape in the hope that it would keep most of the glass from showering down on us if bombs dropped too close. We became familiar with air raid sirens, air raid shelters, and barrage balloons floating like large sausages a little distance above us.

In small parks and recreation areas anti-aircraft guns emplacements mushroomed; some even on the tops of buildings, their long, slender barrels pointing skywards with separate searchlight units close by. Deep anti-tank ditches zigzagged through fields, and barbed wire and landmines prevented anyone from using most of our beaches. The ordinary people of Great Britain had decided that Hitler would not conquer us as easily as he thought he would.

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The lesson on general knowledge in my primary school classroom had just finished and our teacher looked more serious now. None of us knew then that she had a fiancĂ© living in Iceland and that she would be leaving to join him in a few weeks. It was almost the end of the school day and we were asked to take out our song books. We didn’t mind, we enjoyed it when she accompanied us on the piano. We sang only one song that day; it was in the back of the book and the words were by William Blake. It was more like a hymn to me and stirred my emotions deeply as we stood to sing. I didn’t need to read the words, I knew them off by heart and hidden tears sprung to my eyes after the first few words:
‘And did those feet, in ancient times, walk upon England’s mountains green?’
The pictures in my mind varied between those feet and those of German troops marching along our country lanes.
‘And did the Countenance Divine, shine forth upon our clouded hills?’
Yes, I wondered about that too. Did the Countenance Divine shine upon Germany?

It was then I noticed our teacher’s eyes moving slowly from face to face around the classroom. They stopped on various faces as we sang: ‘I shall not cease from mental fight’. Our teachers had often told us to think for ourselves. Now she was having difficulty finding the notes on the piano and I saw her blink to clear the tears away. The few who noticed, like myself, tried to carry on singing with the rest, but I found it difficult with a lump in my throat.

Our teacher had taught at the school for six years or more; time enough to know those in the senior classes and know they’d soon be serving in the armed forces. Would they get the chance to go abroad at last, all expenses paid; free at last from the shackles that bound them to the ‘dark satanic mills’ all around? (Many years would pass before I learned that the dark satanic mills Blake wrote about had a great deal to do with the abstract mind.)

No arrows of desire would these young men receive; instead of spears, they’d carry rifles. Some would descend from the heavens in billows of silk, lucky to arrive unscathed, and those who did, still had to do battle with the waiting enemy. Others would operate midget submarines to sink Italian warships anchored in their own waters. Still others would appear in their tanks as chariots of fire, making their last brave dash across the burning sands of the Middle East.

Thus did former members of schools throughout England and the United Kingdom, together with our allies, find their way to fight against Hitler’s attempt to destroy us in order to create his master race. Family members and loved ones would write to those stationed at home and those still alive overseas on active service or in prison camps. They’d pray, and mourn, and remember them at church, at home and in memorial services.

With my teacher and all of my classmates, we played our part in the war too, striving against the mental oppression William Blake wrote of, and of which we sang from our hearts so many years ago. Whatever our teacher was thinking as she struggled through the song and shed her tears I’m sure she hoped that some of us would survive and live to be free to think for ourselves.

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And did those feet in ancient times
Walk upon England’s mountains green:
And was the holy Lamb of God,
On England’s pleasant pastures seen!

And did the Countenance Divine,
Shine forth upon our clouded hills?
And was Jerusalem builded here,
Among these dark Satanic Mills?

Bring me my Bow of burning gold;
Bring me my Arrows of desire:
Bring me my Spear: O clouds unfold!
Bring me my Chariot of fire!

I will not cease from Mental Fight,
Nor shall my Sword sleep in my hand:
Till we have built Jerusalem,
In England’s green & pleasant Land

William Blake

Dennis Crompton © 1998
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)

Sunday, 17 November 2013

The long goodbye

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This was written after reading the article: Up from Ground Zero, by Ted Gup, in the National Geographic, August 1995
 
When someone is bereaved, healing usually comes with the passing of time, or through faith in a religion. For some, grief may mingle with guilt at having survived while loved ones died, resulting in the bereavement being a prolonged and agonising affair. The bereavement of Mrs Shina Sonoda, a widow with four children living in Hiroshima, was to start in 1945.

The facts concerning what happened at Hiroshima at around 8.16 am on 6 August that year are well known. The pictures or films of the awesome destruction from the explosion of an atomic bomb have been seen by all, but we see at a distance; we are remote, not connected, only horrified observers of what we humans can do to each other; our feelings dependent on whether we had loved ones or close friends who suffered through the actions of the Japanese prior to the bomb.

I was in my early teens then and felt the Japanese had brought such disasters on themselves. When I married and became a father my way of thinking changed, often prefaced by the thought: How would I feel if my wife or children were in that position?

In a doctor’s waiting room recently I read an item about Hiroshima, which brought a personal aspect to the bombing, it went like this …

The air raid siren had sounded the All Clear as Mrs Sonoda’s daughter; Akiko again pleaded for the tin of tangerines to be opened, which her mother had promised she would open after an air raid sometime soon. Shima smiled as she gave her a hug: Not this time, Akiko, she said quietly. A few seconds later the bomb exploded reducing the city to a pile of rubble aglow with deadly radiation. Over 80,000 people died instantly with another 60,000 dead within the next 12 months.
As I read, the father part of me imagined I was there with my family. It was devastatingly real. I could see it! At the same time I recalled Winston Churchill, Britain’s Prime Minister at that time quoting Hosea, a prophet in the Old Testament:
‘They have sown the wind, and they shall reap the whirlwind.’
Nothing humans can do can stop a whirlwind, we can only wait until it has passed, pick up the pieces and start again.

I imagined Shima in the midst of all that horror after the bomb. I saw her as a mother, ignoring her own needs, sobbing and searching frantically for Akiko. I heard her moans of disbelief and horror at the utter madness of our civilisation, wondering why everything all around her had been destroyed, yet she had survived and Akiko had not. All that remained was the image of her daughter in her mind.

Of course I could never really know what it was like for Mrs Sonoda, but as I read I did know that I could have been born Japanese. My name could have been Sonoda, then I would have been as they, thought and acted as they.

I read on. Tormented because she hadn’t found Akiko, she also deeply regretted that she hadn’t opened the tin of tangerines; it was such a simple last request after all. From that time on she knelt every morning at her Buddhist shrine. With her prayer she offered a tin of tangerines for the soul of Akiko and with the prayers her grief was eased a little each day.

Close to the dome of twisted steel and concrete, the picture most of us have of Hiroshima is the Peace Memorial Museum. The basement houses an index, each card detailing someone who died as a result of the bombing.

Ted Gup who brought the story of Shima Sonoda to light asked to see Akiko’s card. It records that Yoshiharo Agari was the one who found her crushed body. The card had been there for years. I don’t know if Mrs Sonoda ever went there to see those details, or ever will. If she does, her long goodbye may end at last in the city which is now called Peace.

Dennis Crompton © 1995
(first published www.denniscrompton.wordpress.com 2013)