Friday, 17 January 2014
The man behind the photograph
He was very pleased that he’d followed her advice. The photograph turned out fine. Just the right angle and lighting, with the colouring and setting adding to the dignity. In the best magazine and newspapers too!
A few things had worried him though. He hadn’t altered his hairstyle. Martina, his dear wife, suggested that he should part his hair down the middle. The remembrance of that brought a chuckle bubbling up from his stomach. It felt so good that when the chuckle turned into a laugh, he let it out – at full rip. “Man, that was great!” he murmured, wiping his eyes and seeing his happy, relaxed face reflected in the mirror. He moved up closer and whispered confidentially to the mirror, “You should laugh more often, Reggie.” The imitation of his ‘special friend’ as she’d wiped the lipstick evidence from his cheek after a recent council meeting, was spot on.
As expected, the photograph didn’t please Martina at all. No middle parting of his hair. The shirt he wore was his favourite, not the one she had bought for him at the men’s outfitters her daddy frequented. But the tie, well the tie was the last straw. Martina was furious about that. She left town some weeks’ later – destination unknown.
Her daddy moved in with Gerald, from the men’s outfitters.
As the newly elected mayor, Reggie got together with his special friend to thank her for the recommendations she had made, with regards to the photograph. And for the tie. Yes, of course, the tie!
Dennis Crompton © 2000
Wednesday, 15 January 2014
Passing time
That was the comment I got from my father when asked what I was thinking about one day. I must have been wishing it was the next day and then I could…..whatever. Anyway, he’d sown another seed in my mind, and I’ve thought about time ever since, at varying intervals, exploring the whys and wherefores of it all. But it was only a few days ago that I linked my thoughts about time with chance, and it opened up a whole new world of possibilities, which I have found both exciting and depressing.“Now lad, you don’t want to go wishing your time away. It’ll go fast enough without that.”
I mean, I could have been born 4,000-odd years back in time, when man was still a hunter. Perhaps the discovery in 1991 of the Ice Man’s body, high up in the mountains between Austria and Italy, started that train of thought? How I have admired and respected the courage of that man, our unknown ancestor. Where was he from? Where was he going? Why? Who had he left behind? And of course, what did they do when he didn’t return…?
But the most interesting thing for me is this: we and our immediate ancestors reach back as far as that man, and then even further back still. We can link with him. Our bodies may have developed slightly differently since then, but our essential make-up is the same. Our minds may contain more information, but wouldn’t he think as we think? He’d think about what was around the next bend of the river, and over the top of the hill. He’d love and hate, laugh and cry, and wish it was tomorrow, up there alone on that mountain top as it was getting dark. He’d wish that it was light again so that he could resume his journey. And, of course, he’d think about life and death.
We’ll never know his true thoughts, but we do know that the cold, intense and bone-chilling, finally overtook his ability to remain alive. Then he had no time left. When he was found in 1991, his spirit and personality had long since gone; only what was left of his clothing remained. That, and his wonderfully crafted creations of tools and weapons, and the sense of his courageous effort in beginning his journey so many years ago. Time and chance had worked against him.
For all that, he didn’t die in vain, because I’m sure that throughout the world, where people have heard of his story, imaginations have been lit which will set a course for many an adventurous soul. And thus it has been ever since man first walked upright on this earth.
And I think my father was right: we shouldn’t wish our time away.
Dennis Crompton © 1996
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Balance
If there is a beginning, then there has to be an end,
that’s logic says the learned man, with a slight nod of his head;
yet that annoying statement leaves too much to be desired
and so throughout the age of man more speculation’s been applied
to the penetrating question of what life is all about.
*
“We’re here today and gone tomorrow,” says the easy-going chap
“My granddad reckons that is so, ’cause he’d been told it when a lad.”
“There ain’t no more to life, so might just as well live it up!”
“No! No!” cries the local vicar, in a pulpit higher than the pews.
“From where I stand I’ll have you know there’s a very different view
there’s the theological question of what life is all about!”
*
Now if I’d had the patience, and been assured by what he’d said,
I’d most likely have agreed with him, as I lay back thinking on my bed;
fact is, I couldn’t stand the way he reckoned he knew best:
confess and get things off my chest, and follow what he said on
the religious set of questions on what life is all about.
*
The world is getting smaller, day by day I know it’s so
for mass communication presents so much more for me to know;
there’s religions, creeds and churches, some good and some that stink
and most that tell me what to do, and just a few that make me think
about the spiritual question of what life is all about.
*
I dreamed last night I’d floated to the space high above the earth
where my view was clear, unimpeded by the happenings below;
there was balance, there was beauty, a harmony of colour and of form
no sign of any discord from the hostilities I’d known, caused by
the all-embracing question of what life is all about.
*
Awaking the next morning, feeling fresh and full of life
I resolved that I’d tell no-one of the things I’d dreamed about;
that I’d simply get on with my life, while life was mine to hold
believing that eventually these things would all work out.
That’s what I think, anyway….is what life is all about.
*
Dennis Crompton © 1995
Wednesday, 8 January 2014
Competitors
‘Share and share alike’ was one of the things taught to us when we were young. I found it difficult at times but in the presence of older people it was best to comply. There were a few times when uncensored, I’d surprise myself by sharing something, prompted by a spontaneous surge of generosity from within. I’d feel quite saintly for a while and believe I should have been treated more kindly by folk, had they but known.
I can’t remember when it started but it probably began with a simply unhygienic sharing at school. My mate had an apple. I did not. So placing my arm around his shoulder as I’d seen other boys do, I said to him, “Give us a bite then, Jim?” And without any further persuasion, I enjoyed my first bite. Later, on observing other boys, I added, “Save us t’core too, will ya?” Over a period of time, the bite or the offer of the core would be shared as naturally as others had shared theirs. (I never extended my request to share oranges though. It was far too cold where I lived to be eating those anywhere but in the warmth of home. I also confess to an inbuilt aversion to tasting the juices of an orange watered down with the dribblings of a runny nose.)
Time and experience have brough competition to bear. There were other mates without an apple, so I set about acquiring skills to cope with the situation. It wasn’t long before I would hone in on an apple breathed on and being polished by a schoolmate as naturally as a female Codling moth’s antenna could pin point the male she sought. My oral seductions for a bite and the core had to be pruned and tamed; and they were.
After a bout of measles I was forced to wear spectacles, and the bottom dropped out of my persuasive approach, finely honed. Overnight I became a has-been mate, with four eyes. Then the school bully took to calling me ‘Skenner’, everyone laughed and I was relegated to a small group of forlorn no-hopers. My self-esteem plummeted. I was the last to be picked for soccer played with an empty tin – exciting within the four walls of the school yard where it was banned. I stood on the furthest boundary for cricket (played with a ball made from rags), if I was picked at all. No wonder I lost something of the bubbling infectious enjoyment of just being with my mates, especially when I we tried to see who could pee the highest up the wall in the boys’ loo (I could only reach the half-way mark). As a competitor I’d become a non-entity. A dreadful label for anyone.
I decided I’d become a monk. I’d be safe behind the cloistered walls of a monastery. I could have, if I’d lived in the Middle Ages… Many of my ideas and inspirations sprang from, “I could have, if…..” The monk idea didn’t last. I looked up the word in an encyclopaedia and pictures of them put me right off. They all looked so woe-begone, and it was obvious they could only reach the half-way mark too.
Anyway, it didn’t take me too long to accept being called four eyes, or Skenner. There seemed to be nothing I could do about it, so I’d grin and make some humorous comment…and in the process I gained a couple of great new mates. No point being woe-begone if I wasn’t even a monk, I thought.
Dennis Crompton © 1997
Tuesday, 7 January 2014
Enlightenment
| Still life by Dutch painter Floris Gerritsz van Schooten 1590 – 1655 |
England, in the spring of 1574, saw a greater number of monks and pilgrims than usual, making their way from one shrine to the next in search of religious enlightenment. Many of them called for food and shelter at abbeys, monasteries and religious houses dotted throughout England. Waltham Abbey, in the country of Hertford, came in for its share of travellers, where a ready source of helpers came from the Refuge for Orphans, which was part of the abbey community.
Austin Kilby, a name given to him when he first arrived at the abbey nine years before, was one of these orphan helpers. His father, Raymond Kilby, was killed aged 27 whilst felling a tree, while his mother, Beatrice Kilby, died of consumption aged 32. Austin was their only child and was initially taken into a Church of England Home of Compassion where he learnt the alphabet and extended his knowledge a little of the written word. Then, no longer willing to care for him, the Home of Compassion sent him to Waltam Abbey. Now in his fifth year as pot-boy in the abbey kitchen he survived from one savage day to the next, amidst the kicks and blows from Jane Macey, in charge of the kitchen, and Edwin Cox, the cook. There was nothing unusual in the treatment the boy received in that environment ―dedicated to Christianity though it was ― it would take some time for enlightenment of any kind to reach those dark corners.
It was Thursday, two weeks before Easter, and preparations for the evening meal were well under way. In just over two hours the guests in the great hall would be served. The boy felt the tension in the two or three steps he’s taken on returning to the kitchen before a fierce grip took a sudden held of his shoulder. As he was spun around, he caught a glimpse of a female face distorted in anger, and something clenched in her fist, but it was too late to avoid the blow. Then the pain began to explode around him. It was his bad luck to have dawdled too long in feeding the kitchen scraps to the fowls. Jane Macey was in a vicious mood and the blows from the heavy wooden spoon caught him full across his face and around his head and shoulders.
“That’ll teach yer to get back quick when I tells yer. Now get them pots on the bench cleaned up afore I fetches yer another reminder.” She stamped off breathing heavily but smiling grimly, pleased with herself that she’d given the brat something to think about.
Thinking was not on Austin’s mind just then; only that he felt a grey cloud descend upon him and consciousness slip away as he fell with a thud to the cold stone floor. Nor was he aware that the cook grabbed his collar and shoved him into the cellar, slamming the door without another thought as to the boy’s condition. And that’s where he stayed for the next few hours. No one cared. He was entirely and completely at their mercy. And mercy was something Jane Macey, Edwin Cox and almost everyone within the boy’s small world knew nothing about.
When consciousness returned, his tongue – sore and tender – explored his lips and gums, cut and bruised by the beating. A little later, his fingers moved carefully over his swollen cheeks and ears; felt the dried blood around his nose and mouth, and though he tried, he failed to hold back a sudden flow of tears that began streaming down his face. For a few months his slight frame shook with sobs. Then, somehow, in the midst of all his misery, lying there in the darkness he allowed the flicker of a smile to cross his face as he thought to himself: Just as well she’d been too busy to give time to the beating. Austin knew he’d come off lightly this time, for he’d suffered far worse in the past.
The knowledge that he would be safe there until they opened the door was some consolation. The second time he’d been flung into the cellar after a beating, he’d found several vents around the top of the wall that enabled him to hear interesting conversations. Behind that wall was where the Rector, Edmund Busby, taught the privileged children of the abbey community. So Austin, eager to acquire knowledge where he could, set himself to learn as much as possible, and concentrate on what was being taught. He discovered his mind was like a sponge, taking in and comprehending information as rapidly as it was delivered. He took to going down there whenever the opportunity arose, learning to think and use his brain and memory to fill in the gaps, and jogging his memory to the early teachings he’d received as a child at the Home of Compassion after his parents died. He had to use his memory, for he’d neither paper to write on, quill to write with, nor books to read. The process helped him forget his aches and pains, and his time spent in the cellar ― by choice or as punishment ― saw that he received almost as good a foundation in Latin and other subjects as any of those privileged to be with the Rector. Quite some time would pass before he found anyone with whom he could talk or discuss the things he’d learned. To everyone around him, he was just an ignorant pot-boy, yet he was rapidly becoming the most enlightened among them.
Austin began to see himself differently. He knew that by keeping his ears and eyes open and using his mind he could learn as well as most of the residents who dined in the great hall of the abbey or travelled through on some pilgrimage or other business. It was this aspect of his character which, Owen Roberts, librarian at the abbey, discerned when the boy was brought before him one day.
It happened that Austin had been helping to unpack some baggage for a group of monks on their way to Lambeth; a task he’d been given now that he was older and that he didn’t mind since it meant that he was out of the kitchen for a while. At some point he’d paused to glance through a book left open on one of the bags. It so entranced him that he failed to notice Clifford Baldwin, the assistant librarian, observing him with keen interest from a window above. Jane Macey was also watching him as she walked past, with a dark look of venom on her face. The look gradually changed to a sneer as she headed for the kitchen. It was obvious she had something bad in mind for him as she flung open the kitchen door. The cook, Edwin Cox ― though used to her tirades ― was taken by surprise, as red in the face, she launched into an angry outburst.
“I’ll do for the brat this time, Edwin! I just seen im poking his nose into books as belongs to is betters. Now what do ‘ee think o that? There’s something about im as tells me ees got ideas above is station. I’ll fix im, see if I don’t!” And out she stormed, heading in the direction of the library.
The following day, Jane Macey watched Austin with narrowed eyes as he was taken from the kitchen and hustled off in the direction of the library. After his face was given a quick wipe with a damp cloth he was made to stand before the librarian.
“Well now, Master Austin, do you know who I am?”
Austin glanced up briefly, look the speaker in the eyes, and nodded respectfully before lowering his gaze again.
“It seems you’ve been deceiving us all. What’s this I hear about you reading books? Is it true?”
The voice of Owen Roberts was matter of fact, and conveyed only that he didn’t believe what he’d been told.
“Come on lad, speak up!”
Austin had never been addressed as ‘Master’ before, and found some encouragement in the fact as he answered: “I…I…Well, I suppose it must be true. Yes, sir.”
“Now what kind of talk is that? You mean to say you don’t know if you can read, when my assistant clearly saw you reading only yesterday? Come now, what say you?”
“Well sir, it’s true I did look at a book. I didn’t mean any harm or disrespect by it, sir, I … I didn’t.”
“Could you tell me anything about this book you looked at, Master Austin?”
“Yes sir, I read from one of the psalms, from the Bible.”
As he questioned further, Owen Roberts could scarcely believe the astute answers given by the pot-boy, and felt in his heart that he could in no way admonish the lad, now close on 14 years of age, he’d been told. His voice softened as he said, “Right then, Austin. I want you to choose a book from these on my desk. Open it and read something to me.”
With no mention of punishment in store for him, Austin began to relax. He picked up a book and began to read:
“Eighth August, 1501: Christina O’ the Grene, by spe..cial favour, has licence to marry, for which the lord, wai..ving the cus..to..mary mer…chet, is pre..pared to accept only 12 pence. William Pictor, who has pre..vi..ous..ly done fealty, and ack..now..ledged his services, now produces a char…ter, by which he an..ces..tors held their an..cient te.ne..ment. In return…”
“Yes, that’s fine, Austin. Now tell me, what is that extract from?”
Austin was confused, and must have looked it.
“I meant to say, look back through the pages and find the title for that piece. Can you do that?”
“Yes, sir,” Austin replied, pleased that he understood what was required of him. He looked back through the pages, then said, “It’s an extract from the Rom…sley Court Rolls, sir. Though I do not know properly what that means. I’m sorry, sir.”
Owen Roberts sat back in his chair with warm delight; a quiet, amused smile on his face. Never had he met with such an open and honest display of intelligence. Something would have to be done about Austin Kilby. He posed a danger ― a danger to himself and a danger to the abbey community ― should his desire and ability for learning exceed the bounds of the narrow acceptability that reigned therein. Such learning as the pot-boy exhibited could easily give rise to rumours that it must be of the devil. He must take pains to prevent that happening, for the likes of bright young Austin Kilby, seldom, if ever, had been heard of around Waltham Abbey or the whole county of Hertford for that matter.
A few days later, Austin was told to collect his few possessions from the corner of the storehouse where he slept, and was escorted to the gatehouse. No one spoke to him there but a few workers he’d come to know by sight around the abbey looked at him strangely as they came and went about their business. They knew that the sheriff of the county was due to see the pot-boy, but why and what would happen, they did not know. When the sheriff did arrive, he saw his stepson taken over the kitchen with someone from the abbey staff, before calling on Owen Roberts. He left a short time later with Austin and a letter sealed with the Abbot’s seal.
In the kitchen, with the pot-boy taken off their hands (and them none the wiser), Jane Macey and Edwin Cox found their work load had increased. They were not happy. About mid-afternoon, they were suddenly interrupted in their work by a visit from the under-secretary to the Abbot, and another strongly built man. The under-secretary informed them that since they’d lost the services of the pot-boy, Roger Borden, stepson of the sheriff, would fill the post. Though simple-minded he was, if treated right, was pleasant, willing and capable. He’d work a little slower than Austin but he was very thorough, and they were assured he’s had every pot, cooking dish, shelf, floor and wall as clean as ever. Being physically very strong they must never attempt to strike him or raise their voice to him, nor to anyone else who happened to be around when he was there. The abbey authorities would take no responsibility for what he might do to them should they not heed their warning.
Meanwhile, in the coach bearing him towards a private tutor in Hertford, Austin, under the patronage of the Abbot of Waltham Abbey, immersed himself in one of the books gifted to him by Owen Roberts. The sheriff too shared in the dawning enlightenment, but was not to know however, that a few years later on the eve of obtaining his authorisation as head librarian at Westminster Abbey, a stroke would suddenly rob him of his life. An injury he’d received whilst he’d worked, suffered and learned under the savage tutelage that held sway in the kitchen of Waltham Abbey, caused a blood vessel to burst in his brain, and his life was ended in an instant.
In an age crying out for the kind of enlightenment he could have found, he was just another ordinary but gifted human being, where patronage was ignored denied or came too late.
Dennis Crompton © 1994
Thursday, 19 December 2013
I am here
I wrote this poem in 1994 after I was
prompted to think back to when I was still a Minister of Religion at Mt
Eden Baptist Church, Auckland, some 30 years prior. As part of that
role, I became a visitor at the nearby Mt Eden Prison, where I was free to come and go, having no past connection with the inmates or their families. I was also there in case an inmate wanted to see a Minister of Religion, and though it was rare for that to happen, a few times it did. I’d see the inmates in the prison chapel, to listen mostly, never to preach, admonish or suggest what they should do to change things – they’d worked through all that themselves in their prison cells.
So, this is what I wrote of my memories of that time…
*
May I tell them of the anguish that you feel deep inside,
outsider, oh so lonely, even ‘midst the noisy thronging crowd;
tell them you don’t fit the scheming pattern of their minds,
deeply hurt by their unthinking laughs and taunts and cruel jibes?
*
May I tell them that the lack of confidence you often feel within,
at school, in sport or following the well-known family tune;
is because you are afraid, and you don’t want to let them down,
from those high ideals they’ve set for you all along the line.
*
May I tell you too, I also know at times you are so scared,
condemned by your own feelings, fearing you have lost your way;
I know you sometimes want to run and never stop,
to end the dreadful nagging pain, or else you’ll blow your top.
*
I know the inmost thoughts that often haunt and torment you,
know that your body will dictate and yes, at times, embarrass you;
I know you are afraid of the long nights and the days,
I know you can’t just pack up your bags and vanish clear away.
*
The lecture they have given you, you know it off by heart,
heard it so bloody often that it’s forcing you apart;
you know you cannot reach the goals they have damn well set,
hate the thought of growing up like so many people you’ve met.
*
May I tell you know, for you need to know before this day is through,
your parents, friends and loved ones really do deeply love you;
they hesitate and do not speak, not sure of what to say, so
scared of hurting you, lest you take flight and hide away.
*
Let me tell them then, who love you, of the things you cannot say,
that life is so frustrating dealing with each muddled day;
there are times you know you need them, and times too when you don’t;
why do they get so angry when you rock the blasted boat?
*
I am here, an intermediary, only a step away – I wait,
knowing I could stand between those close to you who care;
now, you must learn to trust me, that I see both sides and know,
I am the answer to your question: look around you, I am here.
*
Dennis Crompton © 1994
You can read an interesting blog post about conditions and riots in 1965 at Mt Eden Prison by a fellow New Zealand, here:
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Wednesday, 18 December 2013
Landmines never leave the battlefield
The history of man is one of aggression. This could have begun after man learned to gather food and became a hunter: you don’t have to kill berries, or the leaves of plants. You do have to kill animals in order to eat them. And eat or die is the law of nature.
Then man discovered that at the end of a day’s work it was somewhat relaxing to work with nature, sowing seeds, setting our plants and seeing things flourish and grow. Using his ingenuity, he erected fences and marked his livestock (for he found he also had to protect what was his). With this husbandry came the growth of civilisation and all the problems and joys associated with it. And in the process the weaponry he used advanced as well, from a single arrow shot from a bow, to the Kalashnikov rapid fire AK47 rifle of today.
I don’t know who it was who thought of packing explosives inside a metal casing and then connecting it to a trigger mechanism to set it off. Now men drop them from the sky, from above and below the surface of the sea, and in many other ways to seed planet earth with their deadly menace.
The most devilish and indiscriminate of these is the landmine. Today, according to the UNICEF pamphlet in our local library in Morrinsville, there is one landmine for every 20 children around the world. They’re produced for as little as $3, and remain active for decades. They’re extremely difficult to detect and cost between $300-$1,000 to remove. Afghanistan is the most heavily mined country, with 10-15 million units covering their land. Angola is next in line, then comes Cambodia, with one in every 230 Cambodian’s an amputee. Landmines continue to claim about 300 victims each month.
No matter where your caravan might rest as you travel this world, somewhere close by there’s some child, teenager, man or woman, crippled, hurt or deformed. False limbs of a sort will enable them to shuffle through each day but it’s not the same as having their own limbs, is it?
A number of years ago a young woman in Canada wrote a song which struck a blow at the heart of all this madness. I forget her name, but not the title of the song, ‘Universal Soldier,’ and I remember one line that went something like:
More people are adding their note of protest now. I’d like to add my protest with this suggestion: each person greedy for wealth who shuts their mind to horror and their heart from mercy, and orders landmines to be laid – along with those who paid for them and those who bury them in the ground – should take their own children to test these landmines. They could then pick up the pieces, take them home and for those still alive, fit them with artificial limbs. Perhaps then they would see the madness of their work…If every soldier refused to fight, all wars would end.
Dennis Crompton © 1997
“Universal Soldier” is a song written
and recorded by Canadian singer-songwriter Buffy Sainte-Marie. The song
was originally released on Sainte-Marie’s debut album It’s My Way! in
1964. “Universal Soldier” was not a popular hit at the time of its
release, but it did garner attention within the contemporary folk music
community. Sainte-Marie said of the song: “I wrote ‘Universal Soldier’
in the basement of The Purple Onion coffee house in Toronto in the early
sixties. It’s about individual responsibility for war and how the old
feudal thinking kills us all.” (from Wikipedia)
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